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Understanding by coldarrow, literature

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Understanding

I wish you understood pain I wish you knew what it meant I wish that you could see it Taste it Touch it Be the sadist to my pain-starved heart I wish you understood pain. I wish you understood longing That desire for a kindred soul That you felt the emptiness The need That you knew what it was to be alone To cry in the dark I wish you understood longing. I wish you understood anger I wish you knew rage Knew hate Felt the fire in your guts The heat in your veins Fists clenched and knuckles popped I wish you understood anger. I wish you understood despair That you knew the certainty of loss The knowledge that you had noth

Why me? by coldarrow, literature

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Why me?

Talk, talk is cheap. Give me a word you can keep. "Why me?" I don't need to ask the question. Every pore, every fibre, every single part of my being knows the answer without needing to. Because it's who I am. I don't hold back. I love with every inch. Feel completely. Care without censure. It's just the way things are. The way they've always been. This is why I used to isolate myself. Why I kept to just a handful of friends. Loving too freely took too much of a toll. Even now, I cannot stop the pain, the hurt, the betrayal of trust. But I no longer try. I love, or hate, with a deep intensity that is barely contained. A fragile strength.

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Happy

"Are you happy?" She looked up, confused. "Am I happy? What sort of question is that?" He shrugged slightly. "I don't know. I just, I want you to be happy. Are you?" "Honestly?" She paused, closing her book and turning to face him "No, no I'm not happy. But that's ok, because I it's not meant to last anyway." "What do you mean?" "Happiness. It's not meant to be a permanent thing. I mean, sure, I have some happy moments, some truly blissful moments, but that's all they are. Moments. You can't hold on to that, it's unrealistic." "Happiness is unrealistic?" He frowned. "But it's HAPPINESS!!" "Yes, I know. And I'm not saying it's unrealist

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Stronger Than You

Carefully worded midnight missives Death rattles of what lies between Lying awake, listening for the breath that no longer resides in my chest Filling up the empty spaces with silence Warm bodies now cold Full heart broken apart and emptied Lying awake, wondering what might have been had things been different Pulling up the covers and lulling myself into my own security Phantom arms around me Another heartsong cut short Desire unclaimed and left to rot Listening to love songs turned bitter Impatient for a change, sick of waiting Sick, sick, sick Still stronger for the fall Stronger still than you.

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If...

If I had the power to turn back time, I would tell you how I feel If I had the strength to face the things I fear, I would be with you If the world around me would let me love whom I wished, then you would hold my heart But my life is not simple enough that I can live as I wish There is a greater power that I must obey And a lover to whom my heart already belongs But I wish that I had two lives to live so that you could own my heart So that I could love you with all my heart, instead of in secret

My Child by coldarrow, literature

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My Child

I leave you this warning, for life has many dangers And I will not be there to calm all of your tears There are men and women who will seek to destroy you And your heart may break many times in your life People seemingly not care about your tender soul I raise in you a flower of hope, a well-spring of delight And I pray that through all your days it will see you through My child, my precious one, flesh of my flesh, kin of my kin, These words are all I can give you For I fear I will not see you grow I fear that before long I will have to leave you But know that you are always loved That in the arms of God you are safe And you will

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Hunger by coldarrow, literature

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Hunger

The feeling gnaws at my insides Like a beast that has been ignored too long That which I crave is the forbidden The poison which would destroy my own soul But it is that embrace that I hunger for That perfect sweet bliss of the taboo And all that I can feel in my bones Is the gentle caress of his hands His delicate exploration His beautiful desirous touch The will within him to break the rules And to take me as his own Though my heart quivers in fear My whole body invites him in And dies to all it ever knew before

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

July 4
Australia
Deviant for 16 years
blog.arriahne.com/
She / Her

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My Bio

I am a child of chaos.
I create drama where there once was only calm.
I pit friend against friend simply by being who I am and acting on it.
I am impetuous, charming, witty, funny, naive, nerdy, lovely, heartfelt, sincere, world-weary, concerned, caring, unfeeling, over-emotional, quick to love and hard to fall, easy to hurt, hard to break.
I am unapologetic for caring for my friends, my family, my own little world.
I am better than you think I am.
I am irreplaceable.
I am magnificent, strong, fiery.
I am all kinds of sexy.

I am going to tear you apart, then put the pieces back together, and you will never be the same.

I am who I am, and I am not going to apologise for that.
I am Cold.
I am Arrow.
I am me.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Birds of Tokyo, Regina Spektor

Favourite Writers

Steven Erickson, Jacqueline Carey, Terry Pratchett

Favourite Games

Oblivion or NWN

Favourite Gaming Platform

Xbox 360 or PC

Tools of the Trade

Pencil and paper, laptop